Finally my precious darling is asleep.....Phew.
Today mark the start of the weekend. By right i should be very happy about it since my hubby will be at home, meaning i won't be so bored and lonely yet i can't help but to sigh at it. Why? Hmm..That's a pretty good question...
Ok, here's how it goes. Tomorrow i will be going out to my friend's pub which i've not been going there ever since i got pregnant. Frankly speaking, i am damn happy for being able to go out to a nightspot at last, but somehow, i am skeptical on baby issue. It was my hubby's idea, asking me to go tomorrow to relax a bit. This means i will need to let my mother-in-law, a.k.a MIL to take care of my baby Amelia while i'm out tomorrow. Well, not that i dun want her to take care of Amelia, but somehow, i just dun feel right whenever i think of it....
Truth be told, i've been taking care of Amelia all by myself since after confinement, which means for the whole of 2 month+. I've so gotten used of taking care of her alone without any help, so when i think of my MIL coming over to care for her for the night, i can't help but feeling weird. You see, so far, she has been latching on for breastfeeding, even for sleeping she is being latched to sleep..yet for tomorrow, i will be going out after feeding her, leaving my MIL to coax her to sleep. I really wonder if she will have trouble making her sleep or not....As for feeding, Amelia normally will wake up at ard 2-4am for her milk, depending how late she sleeps. In the case of tomorrow, my MIL will need to bottle-feed her should she wake up during that time IF i am still not back by then. Once again, i wonder if she can feed her smoothly and get her back to sleep....
Honestly speaking, i really dunno if my MIL can handle baby Amelia or not, i have my doubts of cos. Many friends have told me that 'dun worry, let your MIL handle, since she will have to it anyway when you work'. Some also said that no matter how unwilling i am, i still gotta let go as i MUST work. I am just too attached to my little darling, just like how she is being so attached to me now. With that, i really can't bear to think that i have to leave her at my MIL's place 5 days a week >.<
Perhaps i am being skeptical, but i have my reasons for that. My MIL's lifestyle just can't make me feel good in letting her take care of my baby. Of cos i can't tell my hubby abt this, so those who know him, PLS dun say a word abt this to him ya?
Am i thinking too much? Should I not think about it, let go of it and enjoy myself for the night? Am i stressing myself for nothing? I really dunno. I just can't help it....Nonetheless, going out tomorrow is a definite MUST, so i told myself, no matter how reluctant i am, i gotta let go....else when the time comes for me to go back work, i will feel worse.....
Today mark the start of the weekend. By right i should be very happy about it since my hubby will be at home, meaning i won't be so bored and lonely yet i can't help but to sigh at it. Why? Hmm..That's a pretty good question...
Ok, here's how it goes. Tomorrow i will be going out to my friend's pub which i've not been going there ever since i got pregnant. Frankly speaking, i am damn happy for being able to go out to a nightspot at last, but somehow, i am skeptical on baby issue. It was my hubby's idea, asking me to go tomorrow to relax a bit. This means i will need to let my mother-in-law, a.k.a MIL to take care of my baby Amelia while i'm out tomorrow. Well, not that i dun want her to take care of Amelia, but somehow, i just dun feel right whenever i think of it....
Truth be told, i've been taking care of Amelia all by myself since after confinement, which means for the whole of 2 month+. I've so gotten used of taking care of her alone without any help, so when i think of my MIL coming over to care for her for the night, i can't help but feeling weird. You see, so far, she has been latching on for breastfeeding, even for sleeping she is being latched to sleep..yet for tomorrow, i will be going out after feeding her, leaving my MIL to coax her to sleep. I really wonder if she will have trouble making her sleep or not....As for feeding, Amelia normally will wake up at ard 2-4am for her milk, depending how late she sleeps. In the case of tomorrow, my MIL will need to bottle-feed her should she wake up during that time IF i am still not back by then. Once again, i wonder if she can feed her smoothly and get her back to sleep....
Honestly speaking, i really dunno if my MIL can handle baby Amelia or not, i have my doubts of cos. Many friends have told me that 'dun worry, let your MIL handle, since she will have to it anyway when you work'. Some also said that no matter how unwilling i am, i still gotta let go as i MUST work. I am just too attached to my little darling, just like how she is being so attached to me now. With that, i really can't bear to think that i have to leave her at my MIL's place 5 days a week >.<
Perhaps i am being skeptical, but i have my reasons for that. My MIL's lifestyle just can't make me feel good in letting her take care of my baby. Of cos i can't tell my hubby abt this, so those who know him, PLS dun say a word abt this to him ya?
Am i thinking too much? Should I not think about it, let go of it and enjoy myself for the night? Am i stressing myself for nothing? I really dunno. I just can't help it....Nonetheless, going out tomorrow is a definite MUST, so i told myself, no matter how reluctant i am, i gotta let go....else when the time comes for me to go back work, i will feel worse.....
2 comments:
I can understand how you feel... It is really not easy for any mother to leave their newborn baby even for a while because of the strong attachment.. But u know, u have to relax & try to give confidence to your MIL. To be frank, i agree the new mothers have a new way to taking care of babies but im sure the old & traditional way still works somehow. She might be rusty now but im sure after a while, she will get the hang out of it..
So.. just relax & remember u are not just Amelia mother now, u are still Eric wife & most important, JOYCE! So must learn to balance & chill sometimes ya.. Enjoy tonight!
Lets sing to our heart contents! See u later
Thanks for the comment, really appreciate that :)
Yup, i will learn to let go more and more....will try my best to do that!
Anyway, yesterday was a good and enjoyable night!
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