Gloomy Day..Yes, It is..

Today is a gloomy day, just like my feelings. Yup, that is so true..

This morning there was a heavy rain. Weird enough, it was just like how i felt yesterday.

Alright, I cried yesterday night. People said pregnant woman shouldn't cry as the mother's mood will affect the baby inside her. Hmm..why did i cry? You know, i didn't really want to cry at all, not a bit...but being pregnant, women tend to be high in moodswing. So, even though i didn't really wanted to cry, the tears just couldn't stop falling down to my cheeks.

Everything began with my baby inside me and the issue of who's going to take care of him/her after birth. My mum wish to do it but can't, due to her job (she had to work to pay for her house), my MIL wish to do it but can't, due to her doggie (she couldn't bear to give the dog away). Puzzled why doggie has to go if my MIL is to take care of my child? That's cos the doggie is shitting and peeing everywhere in the house! (yup, it didn't get toilet training right after all) I do not wish my child to be rolling and crawling on the floor where the dog had always pooed and pee everyday, causing my child to be caught up with bacteria. Is that really that hard to understand? Some don't, really...

Nontheless, my mum called up my MIL to talk over this issue. What she told my MIL is in fact what i told her. To be frank, i was dishearted to see how taking care of grandchild can be such a task and problem which resulted in debates. True enough, i may be the cause of it since i am bothered by the dog's hygiene (although I do love the dog too). I don't think any mothers will blame me for thinking this way since i will be taking such pain to bring this child to this world! Oh well, in the end, my dear hubby suggested to let his mum (my MIL) take care of our child, in the condition of the dog being taken to the kitchen during the time my child is in the house. One problem is....my in-laws are REALLY soft-hearted when it comes to that dog...should the dog starts to bark or being pathetic, they will definitely pull it out of the kitchen...be it my child is around or not..this i can bet although my hubby promised he will tried his best to make his parents listen...

I am not trying to be hard on them and the dog, really. I am just trying to tell them in a way that it's really TIME to be fierce on the dog and lecture the dog properly! Should they learned this right from the start, the toilet training will be completed and this matter won't happen after all. Knowing when to be harsh, and when to be gentle to your dog really matters and that will result in your dog's reaction, behaviour and obedience towards the owner(s).

I know my hubby is in a difficult position and I don't really want make him stay in this position forever. So...i agreed. I don't really mind who is taking care of my child, so long he/she is well taken care of.

I did not come from a wealthy family. I did not come from a well-educated family. I did not even get to enjoy lots of stuff, such as family love. But what i only want is to let my child live in a healthy, hygenic, average family.

Oh well...I've been such a nag today...